Why Am I Not Rushing?

I am in the process of applying for a scholarship and I have basically completed its requirements. The only one's lacking are the essay's and CV that I have to make. The deadline is next week and I've been postponing this task for quite a few weeks now. I need to be in the proper mindset to complete this and hoping to mail it by Wednesday.

The problem for me is that, why am I not rushing to do this? I know I can make this within one night. I should have completed thus weeks ago but I tried to postpone it.

Do I really need the sense of urgency to do this for me to do this right? Or am I just being lazy?

I Missed Going to School

Yesterday, I went to my collegiate university to take care of some documents that needs the school seal. It's been more than a year since I last stepped in it and I still adore it. It changed a bit but most of the buildings during my time were still there and improved dramatically.

We used to have only electric fans in our classrooms, but now, most of the school is air-conditioned. Overall, the school looks much better than before.

I miss studying there, not because of friends or the activities, but i missed learning from the teachers who helped me to be what I am today. I miss doing the assignments even if i used to dislike doing them. I miss listening to the teacher especially in Philosophy even though I'm afraid that he might solicit my answer or just an opinion.

Learning things on your own like reading from books or surfing is internet is good but I believe that the teachers are great at reinforcing those knowledge that we've learned from other mediums of instruction.

Do I Have to finish This?

A few hours ago my friend reminded me that I have a thesis to make. I totally forgot about it maybe due to the long break. A few years ago, I decided that I don't want to pursue this anymore because it was costly and simple. But a while back, a friend convinced me otherwise so I enrolled for my thesis. However, completing this is not one of my priorities. But deep inside me, something tells me that I have to complete this thing. I have to finish everything I have started. I must constantly remind myself that I have to start it first in order to finish it. Getting confusing, am I?

When Will I Start It?

Having enrolled for a thesis more than a month ago, I still have no clue on what topic to do. I was supposed to attend a briefing on that matter but I have backed out because of the need to travel again. It was supposed to be a introduction on thesis writing but as I have inquired with my friend who took it before, it is not necessary though because the adviser that you will take will also teach you those stuff. However, my main problem is the topic. With so many choices, the problem is now in the choosing. I have to analyze it out thoroughly because I don't have that much financial capability to launch a large scale research on a subject matter. Maybe, this month I can find an approved topic so that I can start researching and hope to finish it by march.

Finally, I'm Enrolled

This morning I finally enrolled but I really don't know what to do on the subject that I enrolled. It's been two years since I wen to school. Just glad that I've enrolled because I thought I was already over the limit for maximum years allowed. When I enrolled this morning, I don't even remember the procedures on enrollment and I felt almost lost with all the procedures even if I was the the only one enrolling that very moment. I felt silly but I'm glad it's over. Now, the real battle begins. I have no idea what to do..hehe.

Trying to Enroll, Again

Tomorrow I will be trying to enroll and finish what I started about four years ago. I don't know if I will still be accepted but I'll try. Now, I've got a lot of time in my hand and maybe, just maybe, I can finish my thesis in just one semester. The next months would be so hectic because of the holiday season and all my travels. In my timetable, I have to do it all in three months or less so that I can graduate by March together with my friends. I hope I can do it.