Last Day on the Job

Today is my last day on the job. I'm just finishing up all my previous assignments before turning it over to my replacement. It's been two years since I started working here and I've learned a lot. It is now time to move on and seek further success in other fields.

Busy Training

It's be a while since I am training my replacement since I will be resigning from my current position. My replacement is more adept to my work because of his prior knowledge of what this job entails him to do. He came from another division of our company, so not much immersion on the job is required. Just a little tutorial on some of the things I've been doing for the past two years that must now continue to do. I hope he does well in his new position.

Going Out Celebration of Sorts

Today, we held a going out celebration of sorts for the three of us who will be leaving the company. We a feast for our department and some snacks to others. We've got to love our own. A little snack for everyone for all the good and bad times we shared. For all the stories and gossips that we have exchanged throughout our stay in the company. We will definitely miss the people we have known and confided with during our stay. We just hope that you wish us well in the new endeavors that we are about to do. I wish you all the best and hope we'll see each other someday. Good luck to all of us.

Perfect love is Rare

Perfect love is rare indeed -
for to be a lover will require that you continually
have the subtlety of the very wise,
the flexibility of the child, the sensitivity of the artist,
the understanding of the philosopher, the acceptance of the saint,
the tolerance of the scholar and the fortitude of the certain.

Leo Buscaglia

Remembering Martial Law

Last Sunday was the anniversary of the declaration of Martial Law in this country 36 years ago. I didn’t even know it then until I watched the news of several groups remembering one of the darkest hours of our nation.

I watching surfing the television shows last night and chanced upon the documentary IMELDA last night on TV5. The documentary shows Imelda thoughts and opinions of her past and the opinions of several witnesses to her time. It shows what Imelda thinks of her actions and the reality that happens during that time. How sad is it to live at that time when our leaders were more concerned on the aesthetic appearance of our country over the alleviation of plight of its people.

One of the business associates of the Marcoses that time even remarked that it was one of the most wonderful times in the country because people are disciplined and does what they are told to. How inconsiderate is it for someone to say something like that? The people are doing what they are told to do is not a mark of democracy. The people were afraid of being imprisoned or killed, for that matter when you can only do what your leader thinks is correct. Stifling basic freedom like freedom of expression and the freedom to know, not the things that the government wants us to believe, is one of the cruellest things that can be done to an entire nation.

I can’t believe that Imelda could say that she is both a star and a slave and that the people are happy if happy if they see her extravagance. She thinks that she is some sort of delusional drug for the people must take for them to be happy. I can’t help but feel awful after her statements and her assumption that one of the worst times of our country was its best because of her, is something I cannot accept. One cannot say that they created something if it is not theirs. Invoking the word of God and that they were the savior of this third world country is one of the most blatant lies ever told.

In those times when all types media are stifled, could they ever stifle the people’s voice today with all sorts of free media such a blogging. Makes me think, in those times, how much the government would be willing to do to suppress our freedom.

Choosing One's Attitude

We who lived in concentration camps can remember the men who walked through the huts comforting others, giving away their last piece of bread. They may have been few in number, but they offer sufficient proof that everything can be taken from a man but one thing: the last of the human freedoms -- to choose one's attitude in any given set of circumstances.

Viktor E. Frankl

Farewell Treat

A farewell treat is usually expected from a person who is about to leave his/her current job. Well, soon, I will be that person. People expect you to give one, and they will tell you about it constantly. Over the last month, I was told about this. I don’t know if I can because I’m financially challenged right now. Maybe something small will do, however, it is difficult to do right now because of financial constraints.

Award for 8

They all are charmed with the blogs, where in the majority of its aims are to show the marvels and to do friendship; there are persons who are not interested when we give them a prize and then they help to cut these bows; do we want that they are cut or that they propagate? Then let’s try to give more attention to them! So with this prize we must deliver it to 8 bloggers that in turn must make the same thing and put this text.

Many Thanks to you my dear Shengy's Delight.

I’ll choose:

dio t'ama

edelweiza

kittykay1981

glamorouscha

question to answer

francis

selo

esmeralda

Immediate Assumption

I had a conversation with brief conversation with and co-worker this morning. She asked me something and I answered. Her immediately replied that I was lying. I answered here truthfully and never recalled lying to her before. How could that be that she assumed that i was lying? This did not just happen today, I had many conversations like this before.

Reactions like this puzzles me. Why do some people assume that we are lying when we answer them? Are we used with lies that we cannot decide which is the true or false? Are we not trustful of everyone around us? What makes a person assume that answers are lies?

This reminds me of a friend who always react by saying that I was lying to everything I tell her. I always ask her if i have ever lied to her and she cannot answer me straight because I have never lied to her before. I am always irritated with this type of response because I am not someone who fabricates answers. What makes them think that I'm lying? Is it because I sometimes smile when I answer or that I answer immediately to their questions. I really have no clue why this is their initial reaction to my answers. Maybe the truth fo them is harder to believe than a lie. Who knows?

Impatience Poisons All Our Joys

Impatience poisons all our joys and prevents us from recognizing happiness. We are made impatient by the impression that happiness is always a little further on. We want to rush through everything to achieve it. But happiness, as a philosopher once wrote, is like a ball chased by a child - when you catch up with it, you give it a kick.

Luigi Barzini Sr.

Slow Time

Today, it seems that the time is going very slow since this morning. This usually happens when I’m bored. I’ve done my paperwork and it still seems that the clock hasn’t moved. It’s a very slow and lackluster day for me. Not much to do and still waiting for the clock to reach 6PM so that I could go home already. (sigh)

Wrong Description

Too many people get credit for being good, when they are only being passive. They are too often praised for being broadminded when they are so broadminded they can never make up their minds about anything.

Bishop Fulton J. Sheen

Maybe Someday

I’ve often wondered between you and me, if it could be together. We’re so different from each other like opposite sides of a coin. You’re exciting, I’m boring and that pretty much sums it up. I don’t know why but somehow I’m attracted to you. I can formulate many reasons why we should not be together but do they really matter. We’ve known each other for a while now but you don’t take be seriously. I really don’t know why you do believe what I say even though I haven’t told you a lie. We’re close but not that close I would’ve wanted. I’ll be making a choice of continued friendship or as your lover. Too difficult a choice to make. Maybe, for now, all I give you are hints of how I feel even if you see it as a joke. Maybe someday you will see how you mean to me underneath this funny face I’m projecting. Maybe someday…

Prayer

We cannot merely pray to You, O God, to end war;
For we know that You have made the world in a way
That man must find his own path to peace
Within himself and with his neighbor.
We cannot merely pray to You, O God, to end starvation;
For you have already given us the resources
With which to feed the entire world
If we would only use them wisely.
We cannot merely pray to You, O God,
To root out prejudice,
For you have already given us eyes
With which to see the good in all men
If we would only use them rightly.
We cannot merely pray to You, O God, to end despair,
For You have already given us the power
To clear away slums and to give hope
If we would only use our power justly.
We cannot merely pray to You, O God, to end disease,
For you have already given us great minds with which
To search out cures and healing,
If we would only use them constructively.
Therefore we pray to You instead, O God,
For strength, determination, and willpower,
To do instead of just to pray,
To become instead of merely to wish.

Jack Riemer

Illusions

I’m tired of believing in illusions that I wish I would see. Oftentimes, when I fell happy on something about you, I find something that breaks by heart, not knowing even if it’s true or not. That’s the problem with illusions, they can’t be verified. These are illusions perpetuated by a desperate man. I perceive what I want to see and then reality hits me back, it hits me hard. But why do I keep on believing these illusions even though they would unlikely become a reality? Between you and me, all I can see is the illusion of what we could be. It gives me hope that maybe someday these illusions would materialize in front of me. I can’t promise myself that I wouldn’t wonder about you. All I can do is do is dream even if it’s close to an impossible dream.

A Wonderful Evening

Last night, it was a typical evening when I arrived at home. I ate my dinner, slept a bit, and then watched some movie and a television show. Usual evening for me until you said good night and that typical evening turned into a wonderful one. You weren’t there, but I wish you could see how happy I was. You made me smile even for a while. You remembered and made me part of your day just as you were about to sleep. Wishfully thinking that I hope I was in your dreams.

What a wonderful evening it turned out to be.

Touch

Touch is a primal need, as necessary for growth as food, clothing or shelter. From the nuzzles and caresses between mother and infant that form the foundation of the self, to the holding of hands between a son and his dying father that allows a final letting go, touch is our most intimate and powerful form of communication. Michelangelo knew this: when he painted God extending a hand toward Adam on the ceiling of the Sistine Chapel, he chose touch to depict the gift of life.

George Howe Colt

In the Guise of Service

The next election is still in 2010 but some interested individuals are now publicly expressing their interest in running for office and are doing so because the want to serve the Filipino people.

I have a problem with that reason of service to the country as a reason for running for political office. Every year, most of the politicians if not all, increased their assets & liabilities. They are getting richer & richer every year. And they all reason out that their businesses and investments are improving. Some of them would even say that they are sacrificing when they enter politics because they will lose money. And do you think they are getting poorer, even with the millions that they will spend for election? No, they are still getting richer because you can always take it back using government funds under some bogus project that they would create.

How stupid do they think we are? A public position may not give one person a higher salary but it gives that person power. The power to intimidate others and the power to let others favor you or your friends business or enterprise even if you’re not worthy. It is the power of influence, in the negative sense.

Now, people who even no background or knowledge about politics or leadership for that matter are positioning themselves for public office. It is an open secret why people enter politics; they want to protect their private & public interests. Mind you, the people are not on top of their priorities, they prioritize themselves. Then when their terms are finished, they let other family members on it and make their public office some sort of family corporation. The only thing that those men will do in their office is there are sign something that someone told them to sign because they have little or no understanding of what their position entails. And they will be easy to manipulate with the color of money. The number one on their scheduled activities would be doing some photo-ops for some project that have offered to the hungry masses and have it plastered all over town to let the people know that they have done something.

I abhor seeing the signage or posters places in most streets that says that projects are brought to us by some president, senator, congressman, governor or mayor. It is as if they have done it themselves using their own money. They are promoting their goodness to their constituents using the people’s money. How lame do they think the people are? One must not own what is not theirs.

I’m just here ranting my disappointment with our government. And however we may wish it would be different, it won’t. This is due to the fact that we continue to elect public officials who promote themselves as something they are not, while taking money on the side. We have learned to tolerate their actions because we have lost hope for change. There are still a few out there who still do real public service but you can count them all with the fingers of your hands. People, we must realize that the “lesser evil” is still evil. And wrong is still wrong even if everybody else is doing it. So let us not be blinded by the smiling faces and the dole outs that these would be public servants offer. Let us learn to discern more when we make a choice and have them offer real service and leadership.

What Life Expected from Us

It did not really matter what we expected from life, but rather what life expected from us. We needed to stop asking about the meaning of life, and instead to think of ourselves as those who were being questioned by life - daily and hourly. Our answer must consist, not in talk and meditation, but in right action and in right conduct. Life ultimately means taking the responsibility to find the right answer to its problems and to fulfill the tasks which it constantly sets for each individual.

Viktor E. Frankl

Sneezing Time

Today, you could call me Sneezy, one of Snow White’s Seven Dwarfs because I spent the most part of the day sneezing. My nose once again caught some dust or smelled something that triggered my allergy. I really hate it when this happens. I can’t work well because I can only work with one hand while the other is constantly covering my nose with my handkerchief. And I’m starting to get dizzy after all the sneezing that I went though. Now, I look like Rudolf, the red nose reindeer. How bothersome is this to my day. Oh, how I wish there’s a remedy for this because I can’t put my head down because of the possible gross consequences that might occur. Don’t like taking medicine for this but I think I have to take one today because I have to go somewhere.

And the sneezing continues…

Yes Ma’am / Yes Sir

Watching the news today, one of hot topics is the appointment of Chavit Singson as a deputy National Security adviser. Before that, there was the issue of Ralph Recto and Tito Sotto's appointment. All are defeated senatorial candidates that were now appointed to the president's cabinet after losing the senatorial elections now that the moratorium for hiring of defeated candidates has expired.

I has always bothered me why are defeated senators are appointed to cabinet positions. Couldn’t the president find any other more qualified individual who can do the jobs entailed by those government offices? Does the qualified person have to be a member of the party of the president? Is it necessary that cabinet posts be given to politicians?

I have asked these questions because there are many individuals out there who are more qualified than the ones appointed. I have studied before in my management class that one must find the right personnel to do the job at hand. In my own opinion, the president is looking for “yes ma’am” individuals. Persons who “she owes or they owe her” type of individuals that agree and approve to whatever she says or plans to do.

I have seen individuals who were just hired for political accommodation. These individuals have no knowledge of the job appointed to them because they are not appropriate for the job, they were just for convenience. With this mindset of politicians, it would be difficult to change what is wrong with the government because the problem is not just in the executive level but also in the local level where there are many “politically-accommodated employees”.

I’m an optimistic pessimist. Although, I wouldn’t see any "correct" changes in the government in years to come, whatever the type of government may be, I’m still hoping that it will change. And it will start in us individuals be not tolerating it starting from the grassroots level.

Killing Time / Wasting Energy

I'm in the office right now work. A few of us were required to work while the others are enjoying their weekends. Been here the whole morning and I think my work for the day just lasted about an hour. And now, I just killing time here just to finish the required 4 hours of work. Surfing the net, reading the news, blogging and updating some things in the internet.

This really deviates from the purpose of the company of energy conservation. This is the reason why they removed our half day work schedule every Saturday. Do you think it really works? First of all we still use quite a load of energy working here today even if there are only a few of us. The server should be turned on as well as our computers. And we all know that desktop computers an servers consume a lot of power. I can only say that the intention was noble even if it saves nothing. Or is this just riding the advocacy nowadays of Energy Conservation. This proposal in our office should have been studied and tested well before being implemented, not just for public relation purposes.

Not in the Mood to Work

The whole day, I don't feel like working. My body feels heavy as I sit in my chair doing my daily assignments. What could have been the cause of this? Maybe the weather, food or it's just in my head. Maybe I'm feeling down because tomorrow, I will have to go to work while my other co-workers will be staying in their homes resting. Well, why does my work be always the exception of the rules? No one has to work on holidays, but we do.

But the time of change is near. Will I miss this things that I don't like about my work? Well, I can't tell for certain right now. But the only certain thing that I know, as of this moment, is that I'm not in the mood to work. (sigh)

How Nice It Is to Be Noticed by You

You noticed me today, and it felt great. It may mean nothing to you but it was a wonderful feeling for me. I thought I'm not in your thoughts. Sounds corny, isn't it? But to a guy like me, it meant a lot. I know that you only consider me as a friend but I think of you as someone special and important in my life. I don't know if the time will come that you'll consider me that way, but i can dream. Hoping that maybe someday, you'll see yourself being with me.

Ain't Love Grand?

She'll only break your heart, it’s a fact. And even though I warn you, even though I guarantee you that the girl will only hurt you terribly, you'll still pursue her. Ain't love grand?

Great Expectations (1998)

The Secret is Out

The secret is out. Many people now know of my decision to leave here. I'll be pursuing other opportunities in life. Some have expressed their sadness because friends will not be seeing each other on the daily basis. Some have congratulated me because it is the right move and that it is important for my future. I'll miss them too and I'll cherish the moments that I've made here. Since, I'm still here, let's make additional moments to remember.

Domino Effect

A few weeks ago, one of my co-worker decided to resign from his post to pursue another career path. All of us even teased him about why, where and how of his decision to resign. Now, I also tendered my resignation and to my surprise, another one in our department decided to resign also after I've submitted by resignation letter. And, we've heard another one from another department has decided to leave also. Somehow, it's like a domino effect, one action effects others. We've joked around to the original one that he was the cause of all this leaving. The truth is, we're just looking for a better opportunity and I hope that we all achieve what we left here for.