The Journey of my So-Called Life
A friend that you want to be with, every moment possible each and every day.
To share the joys and sorrows of life, and help them in any possible way.
A friend that can influence your day, with a little word that fills you with smiles.
A friend that can do all of this, even when separated by many miles.
Have you ever had a friend that outshines all the others?
A person so special to you, they rank up with sisters or brothers.
But a friend who is even more than that, in their own unique and special ways.
Because this person can make you feel good, even when your having "one of those days."
A friend who can touch your heart, with everything they do.
A friend that knows how you feel, even when you don't want them to.
Have you ever had a friend, who makes you start to feel.
That you may be more than friends, a feeling that is strong and real.
Have you ever had a friend, who has a special place within your heart.
One that you know you really love, in fact you've known it from the start.
A friend who you want to hug, a friend you want to hold.
A friend to keep warm with, when the both of you are cold.
A friend whose eyes enchant you, have you ever had a friend
That has magic in their smile.
A friend you want to kiss, and hold them for a while.
A friend whose touch excites, a friend who you want to spend all day with
And then look forward to the nights.
Have you ever fallen in love, with someone that is a friend?
A love so real and wonderful, a love that is a friend...
Labels: article, friendship, love
Man is torn away from his primary union with nature, which characterizes animal existence. Having at the same time reason and imagination, he is aware of his aloneness and separateness; of his powerlessness and ignorance; of the accidentalness of his birth and death. He could not face this state of being for a second if he could not find new ties with his fellow man which replace the old ones regulated by instincts. Even if all his physiological needs were satisfied, he would experience his state of aloneness and individuation as a prison from which he had to break in order to preserve his sanity. (...) the necessity to unite with other living beings, to be related to them, is an imperative need on the fulfillment of which man's sanity depends. This need is behind all phenomena which constitute the whole gamut of intimate human relations, of all passions which are called love in the broadest sense of the word.
Erich Fromm
Some say that angels come from God,
Borne here on wings snow white,
To touch some human being’s life
While on their heavenly flight.
That may be true, for so it seems
To happen, now and then.
Some heavenly being reaches down
To touch the hearts of men.
But there’s another kind of gift
That comes from God to men.
It happens when a human heart
Is filled with love again.
And this can happen any time,
On any given day,
If human hearts will hear Love’s call
And let Love have its way.
But human hearts are often shy,
And fear what men would say.
They also fail to see how Love
Could use them in this way.
And so they miss the chance to be
Somebody’s Angel when
A caring word, a thoughtful deed
Would’ve brought Love back again.
So listen, friend, and heed Love’s call
To help someone in need.
Somebody’s Angel, on this day,
Just may be you or me.
Charles David Heineke
I'm in love with a woman that's different from me. Different traits, different values, different likes & dislikes. But does that matter at all. Being me, I will always consider all angles. Some aspects would matter while some don't. Well, the heart must follow what it wants and maybe the mind will understand tomorrow. i don't know how this will end because it hasn't started yet. I have to let her know whatever her reaction would be.
Would I only use the window of opportunity that she'll give me to tell her or would I make my own opportunity?
It's tough for me because I am at a loss on how it should be done. Is there a proper way? Would I just wait for her to show me signs that she's already ready? It's already months since I tried to ask her out but there is no clear reply.
Where should I tell her? The problem with is that I can tell that to her anywhere she is. There's no problem for me. But is there a proper venue for it.
It's hard to court someone you're not familiar with even if you're known them for a very long time.
Well, I have to find out how and very soon.
Waiting is the hardest part.
This, finally, must be serious.
I've often been alone but I've never lived alone. When I was with someone, I was often happy but it seemed like a coincidence. These people were my parents, but it could have been others. Why was this brown-eyed boy my brother, and not the boy with the green eyes on the opposite platform? The taxi-driver's daughter was my friend, but I might as well have put my arm around a horse's neck. I was with a man, I was in love, and I might as well have left him and walked off with the stranger I met in the street.
Look at me, or don't. Give me your hand, or don't. No, don't give me your hand and look away.
Tonight is the new moon. No night can be more peaceful. There won't be any bloodshed in the city. I've never toyed with anyone, yet I've never opened my eyes and thought 'Now, this is serious'. At last it's becoming serious.
I've grown older. Am I the only one who wasn't serious? Is it the times that lack seriousness?
I was never alone, neither on my own nor with others. But I would have liked to be alone. After all, to be alone means to be whole. Now I can say it - as from tonight I'm alone at last. I must put an end to coincidence.
The new moon of decision! I don't know if there is destiny, but there is a decision. So decide! We are the present day now.
The whole town, the whole world is taking part in our decision.
We two are now more than us two.
We incarnate something.
We are sitting in the place of the people and the whole place is full of people who are dreaming the same dream.
We decide everyone's game.
I am ready.
Now it's your turn.
Now you've got to decide.
Now or never!
You need me. You will need me. There's no greater story than ours - a man and a woman. It will be a story of giants - invisible, but transferable, a story of new ancestors.
Look, my eyes. They are the picture of necessity, of everyone's future. Last night I dreamed of a stranger. It was my man. Only with him could I be alone, open up to him, wholly, wholly open for him, welcome him wholly into me, surround him with the labyrinth of shared happiness.
I know. It's you.
from "Wings of Desire"
How would you know if a woman is considering you for a place in her heart? I've been bothered by this thought from day one. Do you take me seriously when I voice out my concerns for you or me wanting a moment of your time to express my feelings? A lot of questions that are yet to be answered. All I wanted was to know if I'm one of your choices. The end result that I want is not even considered yet.
I just don't want to be the person you think as a nuisance but can't express it to me for fear of losing someone. I'm just hoping for a hint of an answer to that question. I have to know. It was never an intention of mine to be thought of a bother to a person's life.
I would never force anyone to like me.
I want to be chosen, not just settled for.
If anyone of you know of any way for me to know this, your comments are welcome.
The past few days, the song that always pops in my head is "Take A Chance On Me" from ABBA. It came back to my head while watching Mamma Mia! months ago and now I can't get rid of it. I don't really think that the song fits my situation but the title does.
I know why it keeps popping in my head. It's because I'm trying to woo someone to want me. After examining myself and what I think she likes based on her lifestyle, I'm nowhere near her type. Just wishing that she'll notice me and maybe take a chance on me. Give a guy his chance to say his piece and let her decide.
It's a new year and i have to be optimistic. I'm a self-confessed pessimist. I can always think of ways for things to go wrong in whatever I do. In the past, I would always defend that I was only thinking things through to avoid unexpected results. Thinking that way sucks the fun out of one's life. It diminish surprises in life. To be spontaneous is out of the question when you're a pessimist. Maybe deep inside, I was just afraid to fail again because of my past experiences. Being a pessimist let me cover hind inside a shell or defense mechanic I have created so that I can always say to myself when things don't go my way that it was expected.
But I have to change that mindset. I need to have a positive attitude even when things don't go my way. I have to experience events rather than recreate them in my mind. With the coming new year, I have to be on the positive side of things, to give things the benefit of a doubt, to be happy.
The first step has already been taken. I asked her out. Although her answer is vague. I still want to pursue it. Gotta do what I should have done a long time ago. I enveloped myself with fear that I was hesitant to ask her. I'm still not as confident as before but I have to do this because I like her. I just hope it turns out well.
Sometimes winning is as hard to deal with as losing. It's easy to moon over a lost love - to fantasize over what might have been, secure in the knowledge that it'll never happen - it makes a great excuse for not facing the risks and demands of reality.
Wolverine (Uncanny X-Men No. 183)
Labels: defeat, disappointment, love, quotation
I was so excited and nervous before my recent trip. Anticipating what might happen, what would I say and what would I do. Rehearsing over and over in my mind the things I have to do to tell someone that I like them. But, alas, she couldn't meet with me because of some prior arrangement. Those were valid arrangements because she had planned it out beforehand and I was just trying to, maybe, insert myself in to her schedule. All that trip for nothing. I stayed in there with nothing to do. No plan B. That was it, it was my only goal.
I tried to do it outside my hometown because I don't know if such actions would be done discreetly. Tried to follow her on her vacation. Silly me. But things didn't turn out as planned, as it always is with my affairs of the heart.
God-willing, I hope that one of these days she'll meet with me. Just couldn't picture out her reaction if I asked her for a date. There's still time for me to prepare my nerves if that time comes. Talked to her before but not like this one that I'm about to do. Telling a friend that you liked them and want to be more than friends with her. I've done this before and it always end with disappointment.
Can't worry about what might happen, I just have to tell her what I fell. It's up to her to react and for me to wait for her reaction. Just thinking about it makes me my hands tremble and my heart beating faster.
Gotta keep calm.
But I don't know if can be calm about it.
Labels: disappointment, hope, love
Tomorrow, I will be traveling again. It's my 2nd trip this week. My agenda for tomorrow's travel is not what was planning the this week. That meeting was canceled and moved to next week. Now, I have a new agenda. I want to rendezvous with someone and hoping that she's meet up up with me if she has no plans. I'm getting nervous already. We've known each other for a very long time and we had conversations before but now I want to tell her something personal that she may not expect me to say. I'm just hoping that I will have the guts to her so. Wish me luck.
I’ve often wondered between you and me, if it could be together. We’re so different from each other like opposite sides of a coin. You’re exciting, I’m boring and that pretty much sums it up. I don’t know why but somehow I’m attracted to you. I can formulate many reasons why we should not be together but do they really matter. We’ve known each other for a while now but you don’t take be seriously. I really don’t know why you do believe what I say even though I haven’t told you a lie. We’re close but not that close I would’ve wanted. I’ll be making a choice of continued friendship or as your lover. Too difficult a choice to make. Maybe, for now, all I give you are hints of how I feel even if you see it as a joke. Maybe someday you will see how you mean to me underneath this funny face I’m projecting. Maybe someday…
You noticed me today, and it felt great. It may mean nothing to you but it was a wonderful feeling for me. I thought I'm not in your thoughts. Sounds corny, isn't it? But to a guy like me, it meant a lot. I know that you only consider me as a friend but I think of you as someone special and important in my life. I don't know if the time will come that you'll consider me that way, but i can dream. Hoping that maybe someday, you'll see yourself being with me.
She'll only break your heart, it’s a fact. And even though I warn you, even though I guarantee you that the girl will only hurt you terribly, you'll still pursue her. Ain't love grand?
Great Expectations (1998)
It's Hard To Wait Around
For Something That Will Never Happen
But It's Even Harder To Give Up
When It's All You Ever Wanted
Anonymous
As of today, my heart still hurts. It’s been more than a year since I failed to win your heart. First time I tried, you were busy. The second, you already had somebody else. It hurts so much. I tried to move on, and I did. I pretended that we’re just friends when we meet, acting as if nothing has happened. I stayed away from view because I’m not good at acting when you’re around.
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